what is this reality con?



#1:32 and losing my grip. Or somehow just keeping it. The six turret roulette wheel rolls round and round - and which chamber lands where pretty much amounts to nada in the greater schema. Click, Click, Boom.

#2:I'm one of the lucky ones. Then again, luck is not necessarily good.

#3:I want to make my world as beautiful and as interesting as possible. Even half way or where ever I actually am on the journey towards that very goal (the long internal voyage towards an uncertain terra nova) - I find it impossible to converse about about the finer details with most people most of the time. I have a lot of weird and intense shit rattling about deep in here (crAnium bAckstAge) and I find its adequate verbal conveyance quite impossible-consequently half sketched dreams run amok, howling at whatever displaced the moon. Admittedly, this can be very funny-but I'd be in a lot of trouble if I told you what I was actually thinking. Really..............I would.

#4:If you've ever wondered whether you're normal..........its a pretty sure bet normal people don't ask that question. Weirdness's hymen is well and truly torn asunder by the mere posing of that particular question.

#5:I am evidently an alien (people refer back to your preferred etymological word horde).

#6:Christ I thought I'd be cruising on autopilot - well beyond the event horizon of this pervasive mindset as I approached the hallowed cusp of early middle age...........it was never my intention to still be the purveyor of high quality teen angst bullcrap during that point of my life where I find my first folicles turning a paler shade of polar bear.

But I is what I is.

(Can't go forward.
Can't go back.
Can't move sideways.
Can't see myself in a professional capacity
Can't face being an even more dropped out bum.

My liver won't take it.

The old realities are falling.

I'm haunted bad by real bad memories&the phosgene burn of AWOL acolytes leaves fading traces traces on the implacable declension of my minds eye's Kodak reel.

(Mr Kodak shot a photo. Mr Kodak shot a film. Mr Kodak shot himself)

I'd like to be the auteur of my own heroic personal narrative(s) rather than being the mere unconcious and unknowing spewer of someone/something elses - taking those thoughts to be my own and acting accordingly. But maybe that fantasy is my very own personal flavor of the viral affliction that afflicts us all?).

I can't really explain and I need somebody somewhere to understand.......

TV lies.

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4 months ago

Il est temps d’abandonner le monde des civilisés et sa lumière. Il est trop tard pour tenir à être raisonnable et instruit — ce qui a mené à une vie sans attrait. Secrètement ou non, il est nécessaire de devenir tout autres ou de cesser d’être.”
— Georges Bataille

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4 months ago

Tagged: Paul Goodman

It then becomes necessary to stop short and make a choice: Either/Or. Either one drifts with their absurd system of ideas, believing that this is the human community. Or one dissents totally from their system of ideas and stands as a lonely human being. (But luckily one notices that the others are in the same crisis and making the same choices).”
— Paul Goodman

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4 months ago with 3,227 notes

Via celzmccelz

Holy places are dark places. It is life and strength, not knowledge and words, that we get in them. Holy wisdom is not clear and thin like water, but thick and dark like blood.”
Till We Have Faces, C.S. Lewis  (via sea-change)

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5 months ago with 3 notes

The possibility that empathy resides in parts of the brain so ancient that we share them with rats should give pause to anyone comparing politicians with those poor, underestimated creatures”
— Frans De Waal

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7 months ago

A child is in his natural setting amidst the flowers and the songbirds. There he may more easily express the hidden wealth of his individual endowment. True education is not pumped and crammed in from outward sources, but aids in bringing to the surface the infinite hoard of wisdom within.”
— Rabindranath Tagore

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7 months ago

Love is what the imagination employs to fill the emptiness created by sex.”
— Badiou

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7 months ago

I think it’s sort of time to let go of the icon of the globe, because it places us above it and I think it has allowed us to see nature in this really abstracted way and sort of move pieces, like pieces on a chessboard, and really loose touch with the Earth. You know, it’s like the planet instead of the Earth.”
— Naomi Klein

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7 months ago

He dreams of death and murder, of suicide motels, of orgies and cannabalism, to counteract the perfection of the ocean, of the light, of that insane case of life, to counteract the hyperreality of everything.”
— Jean Baudrillard - The Face

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7 months ago with 2 notes

What sane person could live in this world and not be crazy? The creative adult is the child who has survived.”
— Ursula LaGuin

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7 months ago

One ought, every day at least, to hear a little song, read a good poem, see a fine picture, and if it were possible, to speak a few reasonable words.”
— Goethe